Waffle house fuckery

So Amber, Tonya, and I went to Kagney's last night for the usual party and bullshit. After standing in land for 20 mins in 20 degrees. We finally managed to make it inside. When I say it was packed like shit. I mean damn it was crazy. I was getting bumped and stepped on every 5 mins. But we got a couple of drinks and tried to chill out. At one point we we stalked but a larger headed man, but I think he was trying to talk to Tonya I'm not sure lol. Oh Sway with his crazy, derangeed self was in there looking good as always but he was trying to fight. Just can't behave himself.

But we ended up going to the waffle house were Tonya met this fine thing ummm. But he was married so that was a bust. I met Kamal, a short man, from NJ...right...any who as I'm talking to him, who walks in but Nomad. SN: short but fine, has ugly friends and keeps trying to link all of us up...no beuno..but any who, he saw me talking to ol buddy acted like he wasn't going to speak. After a while we were just eating and talking when the fat ass cook decides to throw us out. Why? I still don't have the answer for that. Ol steak and eggs ass bitch. Amber and I sarted talking shit to his ass until he won't turn around any more..fuck his ass.

Same shit different toliet

Once again I end up here in Fayetteville, NC. I swear this place is just sucking me back in. I'm working this slightly dead end job and just following the same pattern day in and day out. I just want something different... I feel like my life is becoming a rut. But I still look good tho lol... I think I'm officially over the men around here. It's the same group of fools running around here the clubs. There isn't a large variety of places to go out to. So the same "type" of men go to the same clubs over and damn over again.

Damn it feels good to be a gangsta!!!!

So after a year of being so lazy with this blog I'm going to start writing again. Yeah I know there are some things need to catch up on but damn it I'm lazy. Alrightly here's the "t" on me right now. I'm dating Baboo a sweet but short(5'6") guy, pros-kind, amazing father, has a great sense of humor; cons- going thru a "D", bitch mother who he lives with, and not a lot of free time. Now I'm also dating if that's what you want to call it, Smitty, he recently got out of jail and was my man pre-jail. Smitty calls me at the worst possible times I.e. 4 am when he's high or drunk. That's enough to stop it with him right there. But a slight part of me remebers what it was like for us in the beginning. He wrote me love letters for god sake. But now I can't even make myself call him. And Baboo is so scared of a real relationship that ever little thing is questioned and met with a side-eye. And the fact that I live NC right now is not helping this because I want a man here in bed with me at night. Baboo will have to make a Miracle trip down here or something. I know that I'm being greedy or even selfish because I'm not sure what I want from either of them I mean don't get me wrong, I care for both of them it's just hard to let either one of them go

It's been a loong time...

I know that I haven't written anything in the longest time but right now I'm feeling it. Recently I lost the friendship of someone I considered a close friend....and was called a bitch. But oh well it was nothing new. But I'm growing into this town of mine. The people here made you feel kind of welcome. But in all honestly I miss my babe I know that he'll be home soon but maybe just maybe things will really get back to normal in my life. I used to all these dreams about what I'd be doing during this time in my life and so far nothing is popping off. I need a job, I need a car, and I need a good sexing but so far none of that is going down.

I'm dying here in the Outer Banks. I have seen my future and it involves a lot of free time. Living out here in country has really calmed down my good times. I'm not sure if it's the 20 minute drive into civilization or the 20 minute drive to the nearest black people. I know that there are some around here I just haven't seen them. But the people around here are the nicest white people that I have ever meet in my entire life. I was so suspect of them when I first moved down here because I was not used to being told "Hello, welcome to ...." by every single person in the store in every store in town.

But Tonya and DeMario came to visit me a couple of weeks ago and they were feeling the same way I was about all this friendliness. They loved in out here too because of crazy white people we met on the beach. Even if the water was 30 degree. I love living this close to the beach tho. The only problem with it is that is when it rains you can smell all of the water.

Moving

So the fam and I are moving to Havelock or New Bern, NC (same damn town) this weekend and I am so not sure that I'm even going likethis. But at least I'll be with the fam. I looked on Myspace just to pre-game it and there was some cuties running around so that got me a lil bit more excited about the notion. I'm going to miss my friends here in Fayetteville but the thought of being able to go out with my girls and just do it big is exciting to me

Vh1, MTV, and other random tv things

So "For the Love of Ray J.", first this show kills me every time I watch it because for one Ray J as I said before is kind of funny. And the quality of girls on the show are alot better than the ones Vh1 has been known to throw on a show. I can see Ray J randomly hooking up with a number of this females. But the one that kills me every time is Caviar. This woman's voice is the worst thing ever. She is so pretty and then she starts talking. This poor baby sounds like she has a hearing problem. Even Ray J is side-eyeing her at some points. But the random fame whoring continues.

Now for MTV's "From G's to Gents 2" I caught this last night during my sickness (I thought I was dying). Lord there are a number of fools on this show:

First there is Fahim, from Bangladesh by way of Brooklyn, he tickles my spirit every time he comes on the screen. This fool said "he learned how to hunt before he was 5, and can kill a cow in two minutes". But he also never learned how to swim because he damn near drowned on the first show. And I don't care how hard you are its damn near impossible to be a G when you're dipping wet with a nipple ring.

Then there is Blue, he warms my lil icebox for some reason. Maybe its because he's a black ginger, and they're like white people wearing shorts in the snow. You know it happens but it still kind of shocks you when you see it. He is homeless and really seems to need the money. But tears up a little too much for me.

Dirty from Miami with some of the worst dreads I've ever witnessed on tv, not the worst in real life tho (smh). This ninja gets fucked up on the day like ol buddy last season. Burns his ass on the fireplace and then passes out in his underwear on the floor. Like he was at home instead of on tv. Right now I hope someone is telling him how much of a ass he was.

Macho, Chi-town, has a tat of a diamond on his face enough said.

Mito, was in jail has a job as a plumber, and just seems like he got his shit together. But Fonzworth deaded me when he said "did they take advantage of you in jail", he might as well has said were you anally raped sir.

Teddy, from Alabama, is a cutie pie. I saw him and was kind of like "umm sir". I always have a soft spot for southern boys.

But the true star of this mutha fuckin season is RIFF RAFF. This mutha right here is amazin. Think of the most ghetto, hoodtastic girl you know and dip her in skittles and vanilla. This mutha has dyed hair and multi-colored beads. Oh my jesus when I first saw him I cried out loud with joy. He is the craziest white boy from the hood I have seen. His house has painted walls like the lil hood clubs. If he's not wiping his grills down, he's mumbling some random shit no one understands. And this ninja has a tat of the MTV logo on his neck (side-eye).

And I'm not commenting Rhianna and Chris Brown until all the facts come out.

Oh and Mrs. Foster-Raymond just because you go to South America and try to get tighten up doesn't mean the world wouldn't find out. Hope things work out for you.