It's been a loong time...

I know that I haven't written anything in the longest time but right now I'm feeling it. Recently I lost the friendship of someone I considered a close friend....and was called a bitch. But oh well it was nothing new. But I'm growing into this town of mine. The people here made you feel kind of welcome. But in all honestly I miss my babe I know that he'll be home soon but maybe just maybe things will really get back to normal in my life. I used to all these dreams about what I'd be doing during this time in my life and so far nothing is popping off. I need a job, I need a car, and I need a good sexing but so far none of that is going down.

I'm dying here in the Outer Banks. I have seen my future and it involves a lot of free time. Living out here in country has really calmed down my good times. I'm not sure if it's the 20 minute drive into civilization or the 20 minute drive to the nearest black people. I know that there are some around here I just haven't seen them. But the people around here are the nicest white people that I have ever meet in my entire life. I was so suspect of them when I first moved down here because I was not used to being told "Hello, welcome to ...." by every single person in the store in every store in town.

But Tonya and DeMario came to visit me a couple of weeks ago and they were feeling the same way I was about all this friendliness. They loved in out here too because of crazy white people we met on the beach. Even if the water was 30 degree. I love living this close to the beach tho. The only problem with it is that is when it rains you can smell all of the water.

Moving

So the fam and I are moving to Havelock or New Bern, NC (same damn town) this weekend and I am so not sure that I'm even going likethis. But at least I'll be with the fam. I looked on Myspace just to pre-game it and there was some cuties running around so that got me a lil bit more excited about the notion. I'm going to miss my friends here in Fayetteville but the thought of being able to go out with my girls and just do it big is exciting to me

Vh1, MTV, and other random tv things

So "For the Love of Ray J.", first this show kills me every time I watch it because for one Ray J as I said before is kind of funny. And the quality of girls on the show are alot better than the ones Vh1 has been known to throw on a show. I can see Ray J randomly hooking up with a number of this females. But the one that kills me every time is Caviar. This woman's voice is the worst thing ever. She is so pretty and then she starts talking. This poor baby sounds like she has a hearing problem. Even Ray J is side-eyeing her at some points. But the random fame whoring continues.

Now for MTV's "From G's to Gents 2" I caught this last night during my sickness (I thought I was dying). Lord there are a number of fools on this show:

First there is Fahim, from Bangladesh by way of Brooklyn, he tickles my spirit every time he comes on the screen. This fool said "he learned how to hunt before he was 5, and can kill a cow in two minutes". But he also never learned how to swim because he damn near drowned on the first show. And I don't care how hard you are its damn near impossible to be a G when you're dipping wet with a nipple ring.

Then there is Blue, he warms my lil icebox for some reason. Maybe its because he's a black ginger, and they're like white people wearing shorts in the snow. You know it happens but it still kind of shocks you when you see it. He is homeless and really seems to need the money. But tears up a little too much for me.

Dirty from Miami with some of the worst dreads I've ever witnessed on tv, not the worst in real life tho (smh). This ninja gets fucked up on the day like ol buddy last season. Burns his ass on the fireplace and then passes out in his underwear on the floor. Like he was at home instead of on tv. Right now I hope someone is telling him how much of a ass he was.

Macho, Chi-town, has a tat of a diamond on his face enough said.

Mito, was in jail has a job as a plumber, and just seems like he got his shit together. But Fonzworth deaded me when he said "did they take advantage of you in jail", he might as well has said were you anally raped sir.

Teddy, from Alabama, is a cutie pie. I saw him and was kind of like "umm sir". I always have a soft spot for southern boys.

But the true star of this mutha fuckin season is RIFF RAFF. This mutha right here is amazin. Think of the most ghetto, hoodtastic girl you know and dip her in skittles and vanilla. This mutha has dyed hair and multi-colored beads. Oh my jesus when I first saw him I cried out loud with joy. He is the craziest white boy from the hood I have seen. His house has painted walls like the lil hood clubs. If he's not wiping his grills down, he's mumbling some random shit no one understands. And this ninja has a tat of the MTV logo on his neck (side-eye).

And I'm not commenting Rhianna and Chris Brown until all the facts come out.

Oh and Mrs. Foster-Raymond just because you go to South America and try to get tighten up doesn't mean the world wouldn't find out. Hope things work out for you.

I have become that friend

So my home girl Tonya recently meet this young man by the name of Ricky. One night after the club I lock myself out of the house and have to spend the night at her House I get to meet him. I don't like him after 5 mins of convo. Maybe its because he's loud or maybe its because he says bitches whenever he talks about any female period. He even referred to us as bitches during this talk. And he's a one upper. Either way I didn't like him. She asks how I feel about him later now and I tell her the truth. She gets upset and says that I don't like anyone that she ever talks to.(So not true I loved like 2 of the most recent ones)

Now fast forward like a week. tonya and I are in the club and he comes in with his crew. I speak because I have some home training but basically keep it moving. So later on that night in the club I meet his brother. Now his brother says all the right things and I was trying to see what was up for chilling later. This was after a bunch of drinks in all parties in involved. Nothing happens.

So the next day we have shopping trip planned with the fave 5 and he comes along too. At tonya's he says that I was talking shit about him to tonya in the club. I tell him "Not so much he never was even was on my radar." So during the hour car ride he decides to tell the whole truck "so you and my brother are going to fuck huh". I can honestly say that was most embarrassing things to happen to me in my adult life. This ass kept bringing it up for the rest of the day so I was done with him after that and just basically avoided him the rest of the day.

So monday tonya came to the house after being with him all the rest of the weekend. And wanted to talk about him again after talking to me on the phone 5 mins before hand about him. Oh did I mention that she now changes her set plans with me to be with him and doesn't tell me until the last minute. And when she calls its always about him. And she calls me when she's with him and puts him on the phone. That's too much for me. And they are one of those super affectionate couples (kissing and licking at one point).

Well seeing that she was no help I called my C-money and bitched to her about them. Well she boiled it down to two things. (1) its new for her its only been 3 weeks and (2) I'm being a hateful bitch. She wonderfully pointed out that after a long (sahara desert) time of being single I have become slightly bitter(lemon lime). So me not liking him from the beginning has completely harden me against him (true) and I should try to be nice.

Part of me was like fuck it and just keep it the way it is only being around him when absolutely fucking necessary or just grin and bear it. I really like part 1 because I'm moving and don't to see his ass anymore any way. What should I do?

Ugh!!!!

I need a new camera asap I dropped my mine (numerous times) on a stone floor and that shit fell apart, the front is coming off, it doesn't want to upload the pics on the computer at all. It's getting officially retired as soon as I get some monies. And damn this recession all to hell.. And once again phones don't ring until you can't answer them. I need a fresh start becase some men in Fayetteville ain't shit.

Hate is a strong word..

I hate cold weather. End of sentence. Don't pass go don't collect $200. I really need to move some where hot. F warm or even cool I want it so hot that my dark self sunburns because this snow and freezing temps are ridiculous. I want to be in short sleeves and flip flops all year around. We keep our house in the 70's all year around. We are not the ones babe.

Jazzy's Party Party

I love my friends because everytime I come home to the News its a adventure. This time they had a party for me it was so sweet everybody that I see when I come home was there. I was alot drunk and sleepy at the same time. Me and C-money drank a bottle of gin and took drunk pictures. But the pic on the side was at the beginning of the night. Its amazing what can happen with gin making u sin.....

yeah and no at the same time

Well I want to say yeah for my favorite couple in hip hop Nas and Kelis for expecting a baby. I have loved them as a couple since I first heard about them together. They always seemed more at ease as couple then Jay and B. I think its because I'm a sucka for the ova the top expressions of love (the tat on his forearm). But its always a blessing for a loving couple to have a bundle of joy on the way.

Now for the no. we've all heard the rumors of Mrs. Foster-Raymond taking over on Real Housewives of Atl, for Deshawn Snow, now I think that it was great having her show because she had some damn sense and wasn't trying to at a damn fool on TV. But having Tameka on the show may help or hurt Usher because if she makes for great TV (aka act a fool) everyone is going to continue with the the keep a ninja baby theory. But if she acts like a lady (side eye) and shows the reasons why he fell in love with her, maybe he'll stop acting like the world is trying to break them up(double side-eye). But I wonder if all her kids going to be on the show.

VH1

As some of my friends will tell you I have a love/hate relationship with VH1 because of some of the Bullshit that they choose to put on Tv but every once in a while they get some shit right....Enter "For the Love of Ray J" on my sweet lord this show right, this show right here, is going to be be my shit. Because one not a lot of people know this, but Ray j has a kind of funny sense of humor (I half way watched a countdown on Bet with him and Shar), and we all have have seen the sex tape (mmmhhhh).

C-money and I have already got our time mapped out for this show. I know my plan would be to just sex 'em down and then quit with a cunt-like exit ala' "I quit this bitch" (big up Micheal K). I mean really how many of this random females wants to really be with Ray J aka Brandy's brother aka Ain't he with Whitney Houston aka Ray J with the big dick. But that last one always makes it hard to just quit, with good sex you put in a two weeks notice. Just in case you want your job back.

And then the hate comes along with "For the Love of Money 2" I don't know who have these mutha f's are because I don't watch Vh1 that often. But its saving grace would be It from I love NY 2. I love him. I'm not sure why but he is wonderful to me. He made the first couple of episodes. I love the weird ones. So the longer he's on the show the better because I'm on him like a cold sore on Paris.

Change

Well since is been a minute I'm going to write this in paragraphs so it not all long and crazy...

Went to a sweet wedding with two young black, college educated, no kids having people and it was so sweet and wonderful. The date I was supposed to have canceled on me the day of the wedding stating that he had a DUI and he couldn't drive. But he said that he got the DUI last week. And when I talked to him two days b4 the wedding he didn't say anything about it okay.....

Me and the family are moving to Jacksonville, NC a cute lil coastal town. The Moms wants to open her own business here there so hopefully it makes it happen.

I'm being stalked by a ex-boo for some reason i stopped talking to him way back in June why are you calling me I don't answer the phone for him. Except when he tricked me by calling from a different number that son of a bitch.. He said that he was trying to marry me and all that but I don't want him at all. And what would make you want to be with someone that can't stand you.